It's be 8 very long, stressful, and exhausting weeks since I had my surgery. I still can not say that the surgery was worth it. I assume so and have faith that it will be.
This was my first full week of "part-time" work and it flew by and not in that good way. I felt like I was rushed all week. It didn't help that I'm starting to have drowsiness as a side effect to the Relafin. As if I needed help being exhausted.
There weren't any changes in PT this week. I get reevaluated next week. We'll see how that goes. Otherwise, one of Doc Tassy's nurses is on my $**& list now because of the doctor note fiasco.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Week 7 - Operation Cripple
Oh for the love of Doc Tassy. God, bless that man. Why, you say? Because he put me on a part-time/light duty schedule. That seriously was a blessing from God. Don't get me wrong, I'm hurtin like hell, but nothing is bothering me more than being at work. He also put me on Relafen for the pain, which hasn't worked yet. I'm so scared it's going to tear-up my stomach. I've been okay-ish so far.
As for PT, I've "graduated" to big girl exercises. It's exciting but sucks at the same time because they hurt ^_^ I couldn't do a full transition, big surprise, because most of the exercises hurt too much. But I have had to start forcing my arm to stretch in flexion despite the pain.
Oh, and I'm weak as hell. I knew that, but didn't "know" that until they told me to do the "wax on, wax off" motion on the wall. Try it. Easy, right? Well I can't do with without stopping = me weak lol. Sadness.
The other thorn in my side is our HR office. I had to do the leave donation program for the surgery because I didn't have enough sick leave for six weeks. Apparently, they need a doctors note to say it's okay for me to come back to work. Okay, wish I knew that when I asked Doc Tassy two weeks before I came back to work, but whatever. I finally get a hold of his nurse on the phone and she tells me that Doc Tassy didn't put in his notes that I could go back to work!! w00t so I got "sent home" (with some persuasion) early and had a 5 1/2 day weekend. Love it! The following week I see Doc Tassy and get my note. Get the work, call HR and the note isn't okay because I did what the lady told me... Yes, you read that right. I did what she told me, and that wasn't RIGHT.... -_- I call Docs office back, they update the note, and mail it off. I got the note yesterday. The note should have said I could return back to work for 20 hours a week as of June 22nd but it was changed to July 22nd... WTF!!!!!!!! That's NEXT WEDNESDAY DUMB ASS grrr! So now I have to drive down there and get yet ANOTHER note with the correct dates. Also, I probably won't get paid for the missed time in between notes. SOB I know exactly who changed the note too. You know she's going to get it.
Much better news, I get to go home in three hours! hahahaha
As for PT, I've "graduated" to big girl exercises. It's exciting but sucks at the same time because they hurt ^_^ I couldn't do a full transition, big surprise, because most of the exercises hurt too much. But I have had to start forcing my arm to stretch in flexion despite the pain.
Oh, and I'm weak as hell. I knew that, but didn't "know" that until they told me to do the "wax on, wax off" motion on the wall. Try it. Easy, right? Well I can't do with without stopping = me weak lol. Sadness.
The other thorn in my side is our HR office. I had to do the leave donation program for the surgery because I didn't have enough sick leave for six weeks. Apparently, they need a doctors note to say it's okay for me to come back to work. Okay, wish I knew that when I asked Doc Tassy two weeks before I came back to work, but whatever. I finally get a hold of his nurse on the phone and she tells me that Doc Tassy didn't put in his notes that I could go back to work!! w00t so I got "sent home" (with some persuasion) early and had a 5 1/2 day weekend. Love it! The following week I see Doc Tassy and get my note. Get the work, call HR and the note isn't okay because I did what the lady told me... Yes, you read that right. I did what she told me, and that wasn't RIGHT.... -_- I call Docs office back, they update the note, and mail it off. I got the note yesterday. The note should have said I could return back to work for 20 hours a week as of June 22nd but it was changed to July 22nd... WTF!!!!!!!! That's NEXT WEDNESDAY DUMB ASS grrr! So now I have to drive down there and get yet ANOTHER note with the correct dates. Also, I probably won't get paid for the missed time in between notes. SOB I know exactly who changed the note too. You know she's going to get it.
Much better news, I get to go home in three hours! hahahaha
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Week 6 - Operation Cripple
I didn't think it was possible for work to suck any more than it already was, but I was quite quickly proven wrong. Anything and everything I can do to either get away from my desk and/or from the office, I do!
Ridiculous....
PT is progressing quite well. I've gotten a lot of range of motion back. I am able to reach above my head with assistance. I still cannot do flexion. It'll be quite a while for that one. I'm still having consistent pain. I see Doc Tassy tomorrow, so we'll talk about that. I just don't think it's quite "right", but what do I know?! I had no clue this was going to derail my life before fixing anything.
I may have gotten too much sun on my incisions. They're quite pink and puffy =/ If I'm not at work I'm in a tank top. No good. It doesn't help that Debs and I went to Sandy Point Saturday = more sun. Then we're going to the beach this weekend... and next weekend... >_<'
The only wonderfulness this week, was that I needed a doctor's note approving me to return to work. I called Doc Tassy's office to find out that he didn't note that he said it was okay for me to go back to work. -_- After some persuasion, I was "sent home" Thursday until I get a note from Doc Tassy. You know... I'm going to do everything I can to get "light duty" and/or "part-time" on that freakin note!!
Wish me luck! Really, I need a prayer of support and strength more than anything else. Something to keep me from loosing it.
Ridiculous....
PT is progressing quite well. I've gotten a lot of range of motion back. I am able to reach above my head with assistance. I still cannot do flexion. It'll be quite a while for that one. I'm still having consistent pain. I see Doc Tassy tomorrow, so we'll talk about that. I just don't think it's quite "right", but what do I know?! I had no clue this was going to derail my life before fixing anything.
I may have gotten too much sun on my incisions. They're quite pink and puffy =/ If I'm not at work I'm in a tank top. No good. It doesn't help that Debs and I went to Sandy Point Saturday = more sun. Then we're going to the beach this weekend... and next weekend... >_<'
The only wonderfulness this week, was that I needed a doctor's note approving me to return to work. I called Doc Tassy's office to find out that he didn't note that he said it was okay for me to go back to work. -_- After some persuasion, I was "sent home" Thursday until I get a note from Doc Tassy. You know... I'm going to do everything I can to get "light duty" and/or "part-time" on that freakin note!!
Wish me luck! Really, I need a prayer of support and strength more than anything else. Something to keep me from loosing it.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Week 5 - Operation Cripple
*sigh*
I don't even know where to begin... This week... sucked.
I'll post pictures tomorrow or Friday =\
I don't even know where to begin... This week... sucked.
I came out of the contraption last Thursday afternoon. It's been nothing but a painful nuisance. Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy to not be in the sling/immobilizer, but it has been make excruciatingly apparent that I was not ready to come out of it. I did little driving trips over the succeeding weekend and it sucked. I still probably should not be driving. I don’t have rotation of my shoulder. How is that safe? Seriously. I’ve avoided the highway, but have driven to work yesterday and today. Debs took me on Monday, thank God.
I went back to work Monday. I was so exhausted by the end of the day; yesterday, my shoulder was throbbing; and today I was sick and nauseous. All of this is compounded with lack of sleep and exhaustion.
Sleep pattern hasn’t changed yet… pain has increased = recipe for disaster.
So, I called Doc Tassy’s office Monday. I expect discomfort but not flat out pain. I talked to the nurse and we reviewed everything (my activities, when I took the sling off, work, medications, and PT) Her alarm bells went off when we were talking about PT. She was “concerned” about the lack of progression in my exercises. Tuesday at PT I let my PT assistant know what was up so we took out Doc Tassy’s protocol. Sure enough, I was doing everything I should have been minus two exercises. The two that were missing should be added at week four. I was at one day from week five… I believe what should have happened was I did the additional exercises this week and took the sling off next week. I’m sure it would have still be uncomfortable but can you guess what the exercises are for???? Yeppers, FLEXION AND ROTATION >|!!! Arrrrgggggh! SOB So now PT sucks cause I’m actually “working”. My whole arm hurts after wards.
My feelings about work have not changed. I still don’t want to be back, despite my great and entertaining group. I miss my naps and chillin with Isabella.
I was not prepared for this. That drives me nuts. I procrastinate when it comes to work tasks and homework, but not life. This one blindsided me.
I went back to work Monday. I was so exhausted by the end of the day; yesterday, my shoulder was throbbing; and today I was sick and nauseous. All of this is compounded with lack of sleep and exhaustion.
Sleep pattern hasn’t changed yet… pain has increased = recipe for disaster.
So, I called Doc Tassy’s office Monday. I expect discomfort but not flat out pain. I talked to the nurse and we reviewed everything (my activities, when I took the sling off, work, medications, and PT) Her alarm bells went off when we were talking about PT. She was “concerned” about the lack of progression in my exercises. Tuesday at PT I let my PT assistant know what was up so we took out Doc Tassy’s protocol. Sure enough, I was doing everything I should have been minus two exercises. The two that were missing should be added at week four. I was at one day from week five… I believe what should have happened was I did the additional exercises this week and took the sling off next week. I’m sure it would have still be uncomfortable but can you guess what the exercises are for???? Yeppers, FLEXION AND ROTATION >|!!! Arrrrgggggh! SOB So now PT sucks cause I’m actually “working”. My whole arm hurts after wards.
My feelings about work have not changed. I still don’t want to be back, despite my great and entertaining group. I miss my naps and chillin with Isabella.
I was not prepared for this. That drives me nuts. I procrastinate when it comes to work tasks and homework, but not life. This one blindsided me.
I'll post pictures tomorrow or Friday =\
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Week 4 - Operation Cripple
Today, four weeks ago exactly, I had my surgery
There are a few things that I cannot believe about the whole situation: 1. I had surgery, 2. that I didn't have to work for four weeks, 3. that I stayed home for four weeks, 4. that I still hurt from the procedure and 5. I STILL CAN'T SLEEP.... Of course I'll explain.
It just seems surreal to me, still, that I've had surgery. I'm that "perfect bill of health" kind of person, so the fact that I needed to have surgery to HOPEFULLY correct my shoulder just does not compute. Can you say denial? I've had weight loss, weight gain, mental and emotional meltdowns, depression, crash & burn and been temporarily crippled all during the past year and a half.... and I still can't believe it ^_^ LOL Issues!
It’s been wonderful not being at work. I greatly dislike a couple of my coworkers and have enjoyed EVERY SECOND of not hearing, seeing, talking to, and being near them. Sadly, I go back to work next week. boo.
I have a chronic "must stay busy at all times" disorder. So it surprises me that I've stayed home as much as I have. But don't get it twisted, I've still been up to plenty. Probably more than I should have. ^_-
I can't lay on my shoulder, lift my arm all the way up, reach across my chest, put on a bra *properly*. It forces me to quantify how long this road of recovery really will be. My gut tells me I did the right thing having surgery, but I wasn't mentally prepared for what that really meant when it came to lifestyle changes in the succeeding months.
The sleep thing just pisses me off. Really nothing new there!
With all this said, my contraption comes off TOMORROW!!!! I'll miss seeing the good luck/ healthy healing charm Li-Piin got me from Twain... but that's about it =)
PT update: We added a new exercise and I LOVE IT!! It hurts so good! While I'm doing it, it's the best thing everrrrrrrr, but I’m damn sore after. Remember, although I wear the contraption less than ordered, I don't do much arm movement. The new exercise allows me to rotate my whole arm and ball-in-socket joint = Monyelle In Love
*sigh*
There are a few things that I cannot believe about the whole situation: 1. I had surgery, 2. that I didn't have to work for four weeks, 3. that I stayed home for four weeks, 4. that I still hurt from the procedure and 5. I STILL CAN'T SLEEP.... Of course I'll explain.
It just seems surreal to me, still, that I've had surgery. I'm that "perfect bill of health" kind of person, so the fact that I needed to have surgery to HOPEFULLY correct my shoulder just does not compute. Can you say denial? I've had weight loss, weight gain, mental and emotional meltdowns, depression, crash & burn and been temporarily crippled all during the past year and a half.... and I still can't believe it ^_^ LOL Issues!
It’s been wonderful not being at work. I greatly dislike a couple of my coworkers and have enjoyed EVERY SECOND of not hearing, seeing, talking to, and being near them. Sadly, I go back to work next week. boo.
I have a chronic "must stay busy at all times" disorder. So it surprises me that I've stayed home as much as I have. But don't get it twisted, I've still been up to plenty. Probably more than I should have. ^_-
I can't lay on my shoulder, lift my arm all the way up, reach across my chest, put on a bra *properly*. It forces me to quantify how long this road of recovery really will be. My gut tells me I did the right thing having surgery, but I wasn't mentally prepared for what that really meant when it came to lifestyle changes in the succeeding months.
The sleep thing just pisses me off. Really nothing new there!
With all this said, my contraption comes off TOMORROW!!!! I'll miss seeing the good luck/ healthy healing charm Li-Piin got me from Twain... but that's about it =)
PT update: We added a new exercise and I LOVE IT!! It hurts so good! While I'm doing it, it's the best thing everrrrrrrr, but I’m damn sore after. Remember, although I wear the contraption less than ordered, I don't do much arm movement. The new exercise allows me to rotate my whole arm and ball-in-socket joint = Monyelle In Love
*sigh*
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Week 3 - Operation Cripple
Let's see.... I still suck at wearing this freakin sling/inmoblizer and it sucks even more trying to sleep in it. Over the last week I'd been joking about my horrible sleep habits, but I'm seriously going to have problems when I have to go back to work. I spend hours falling asleep just to toss around once I get to sleep. It'll work itself out eventually. I'm just not looking forward to that part.
I couldn't make it to Debs graduation. =( No CA for me boooos. Freakin ticket was more than my rent >_<
We still.... have not started lifting my arm in PT... I don't know what the heck we're waiting for.
My exercises have been modified to one arm instead of my left helping my right and we added two more, but that's gotten old already.
I did have one minor set back. I was walking down the stairs and held on to the banister too long. It pulled my shoulder outward just a bit too far. I was jacked up for the following two days =/ I seem to be okay now, so I'm still praying there was no real damage. Although I've been lifting my arm, when I should not might I add, I can't do across my body and extending to the right yet.
Work sucks ass. No other way to put it. WW3 happened last week and I had to rip a few co-workers a new hole :-D hehe After all was said and done, I took my F-it-all pill and decided I was not going to come back part-time like originally planed. They'll see me when this contraption comes off and I can drive myself. Asses. I'm starting to rethink staying where I am.
I'm finally conscience enough to take advantage of my Netflix account and have found some new faves. Get a pen! Better Than Sex, Ma Vie En Rose, Caramel, He's Just Not That In To You, Pan's Labyrinth & Handcock. See them, k?
Oh, and I posted more pics on Facebook . The stitches are lookin' good ^_^ yays
I couldn't make it to Debs graduation. =( No CA for me boooos. Freakin ticket was more than my rent >_<
We still.... have not started lifting my arm in PT... I don't know what the heck we're waiting for.
My exercises have been modified to one arm instead of my left helping my right and we added two more, but that's gotten old already.
I did have one minor set back. I was walking down the stairs and held on to the banister too long. It pulled my shoulder outward just a bit too far. I was jacked up for the following two days =/ I seem to be okay now, so I'm still praying there was no real damage. Although I've been lifting my arm, when I should not might I add, I can't do across my body and extending to the right yet.
Work sucks ass. No other way to put it. WW3 happened last week and I had to rip a few co-workers a new hole :-D hehe After all was said and done, I took my F-it-all pill and decided I was not going to come back part-time like originally planed. They'll see me when this contraption comes off and I can drive myself. Asses. I'm starting to rethink staying where I am.
I'm finally conscience enough to take advantage of my Netflix account and have found some new faves. Get a pen! Better Than Sex, Ma Vie En Rose, Caramel, He's Just Not That In To You, Pan's Labyrinth & Handcock. See them, k?
Oh, and I posted more pics on Facebook . The stitches are lookin' good ^_^ yays
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