Week 5 - Operation Cripple

*sigh*

I don't even know where to begin... This week... sucked.

I came out of the contraption last Thursday afternoon. It's been nothing but a painful nuisance. Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy to not be in the sling/immobilizer, but it has been make excruciatingly apparent that I was not ready to come out of it. I did little driving trips over the succeeding weekend and it sucked. I still probably should not be driving. I don’t have rotation of my shoulder. How is that safe? Seriously. I’ve avoided the highway, but have driven to work yesterday and today. Debs took me on Monday, thank God.

I went back to work Monday. I was so exhausted by the end of the day; yesterday, my shoulder was throbbing; and today I was sick and nauseous. All of this is compounded with lack of sleep and exhaustion.

Sleep pattern hasn’t changed yet… pain has increased = recipe for disaster.

So, I called Doc Tassy’s office Monday. I expect discomfort but not flat out pain. I talked to the nurse and we reviewed everything (my activities, when I took the sling off, work, medications, and PT) Her alarm bells went off when we were talking about PT. She was “concerned” about the lack of progression in my exercises. Tuesday at PT I let my PT assistant know what was up so we took out Doc Tassy’s protocol. Sure enough, I was doing everything I should have been minus two exercises. The two that were missing should be added at week four. I was at one day from week five… I believe what should have happened was I did the additional exercises this week and took the sling off next week. I’m sure it would have still be uncomfortable but can you guess what the exercises are for???? Yeppers, FLEXION AND ROTATION >|!!! Arrrrgggggh! SOB So now PT sucks cause I’m actually “working”. My whole arm hurts after wards.

My feelings about work have not changed. I still don’t want to be back, despite my great and entertaining group. I miss my naps and chillin with Isabella.

I was not prepared for this. That drives me nuts. I procrastinate when it comes to work tasks and homework, but not life. This one blindsided me.

I'll post pictures tomorrow or Friday =\

Week 4 - Operation Cripple

Today, four weeks ago exactly, I had my surgery

There are a few things that I cannot believe about the whole situation: 1. I had surgery, 2. that I didn't have to work for four weeks, 3. that I stayed home for four weeks, 4. that I still hurt from the procedure and 5. I STILL CAN'T SLEEP.... Of course I'll explain.

It just seems surreal to me, still, that I've had surgery. I'm that "perfect bill of health" kind of person, so the fact that I needed to have surgery to HOPEFULLY correct my shoulder just does not compute. Can you say denial? I've had weight loss, weight gain, mental and emotional meltdowns, depression, crash & burn and been temporarily crippled all during the past year and a half.... and I still can't believe it ^_^ LOL Issues!

It’s been wonderful not being at work. I greatly dislike a couple of my coworkers and have enjoyed EVERY SECOND of not hearing, seeing, talking to, and being near them. Sadly, I go back to work next week. boo.

I have a chronic "must stay busy at all times" disorder. So it surprises me that I've stayed home as much as I have. But don't get it twisted, I've still been up to plenty. Probably more than I should have. ^_-

I can't lay on my shoulder, lift my arm all the way up, reach across my chest, put on a bra *properly*. It forces me to quantify how long this road of recovery really will be. My gut tells me I did the right thing having surgery, but I wasn't mentally prepared for what that really meant when it came to lifestyle changes in the succeeding months.

The sleep thing just pisses me off. Really nothing new there!

With all this said, my contraption comes off TOMORROW!!!! I'll miss seeing the good luck/ healthy healing charm Li-Piin got me from Twain... but that's about it =)

PT update: We added a new exercise and I LOVE IT!! It hurts so good! While I'm doing it, it's the best thing everrrrrrrr, but I’m damn sore after. Remember, although I wear the contraption less than ordered, I don't do much arm movement. The new exercise allows me to rotate my whole arm and ball-in-socket joint = Monyelle In Love

*sigh*

Week 3 - Operation Cripple

Let's see.... I still suck at wearing this freakin sling/inmoblizer and it sucks even more trying to sleep in it. Over the last week I'd been joking about my horrible sleep habits, but I'm seriously going to have problems when I have to go back to work. I spend hours falling asleep just to toss around once I get to sleep. It'll work itself out eventually. I'm just not looking forward to that part.

I couldn't make it to Debs graduation. =( No CA for me boooos. Freakin ticket was more than my rent >_<

We still.... have not started lifting my arm in PT... I don't know what the heck we're waiting for.
My exercises have been modified to one arm instead of my left helping my right and we added two more, but that's gotten old already.

I did have one minor set back. I was walking down the stairs and held on to the banister too long. It pulled my shoulder outward just a bit too far. I was jacked up for the following two days =/ I seem to be okay now, so I'm still praying there was no real damage. Although I've been lifting my arm, when I should not might I add, I can't do across my body and extending to the right yet.

Work sucks ass. No other way to put it. WW3 happened last week and I had to rip a few co-workers a new hole :-D hehe After all was said and done, I took my F-it-all pill and decided I was not going to come back part-time like originally planed. They'll see me when this contraption comes off and I can drive myself. Asses. I'm starting to rethink staying where I am.

I'm finally conscience enough to take advantage of my Netflix account and have found some new faves. Get a pen! Better Than Sex, Ma Vie En Rose, Caramel, He's Just Not That In To You, Pan's Labyrinth & Handcock. See them, k?

Oh, and I posted more pics on Facebook . The stitches are lookin' good ^_^ yays