Week 4 - Operation Cripple

Today, four weeks ago exactly, I had my surgery

There are a few things that I cannot believe about the whole situation: 1. I had surgery, 2. that I didn't have to work for four weeks, 3. that I stayed home for four weeks, 4. that I still hurt from the procedure and 5. I STILL CAN'T SLEEP.... Of course I'll explain.

It just seems surreal to me, still, that I've had surgery. I'm that "perfect bill of health" kind of person, so the fact that I needed to have surgery to HOPEFULLY correct my shoulder just does not compute. Can you say denial? I've had weight loss, weight gain, mental and emotional meltdowns, depression, crash & burn and been temporarily crippled all during the past year and a half.... and I still can't believe it ^_^ LOL Issues!

It’s been wonderful not being at work. I greatly dislike a couple of my coworkers and have enjoyed EVERY SECOND of not hearing, seeing, talking to, and being near them. Sadly, I go back to work next week. boo.

I have a chronic "must stay busy at all times" disorder. So it surprises me that I've stayed home as much as I have. But don't get it twisted, I've still been up to plenty. Probably more than I should have. ^_-

I can't lay on my shoulder, lift my arm all the way up, reach across my chest, put on a bra *properly*. It forces me to quantify how long this road of recovery really will be. My gut tells me I did the right thing having surgery, but I wasn't mentally prepared for what that really meant when it came to lifestyle changes in the succeeding months.

The sleep thing just pisses me off. Really nothing new there!

With all this said, my contraption comes off TOMORROW!!!! I'll miss seeing the good luck/ healthy healing charm Li-Piin got me from Twain... but that's about it =)

PT update: We added a new exercise and I LOVE IT!! It hurts so good! While I'm doing it, it's the best thing everrrrrrrr, but I’m damn sore after. Remember, although I wear the contraption less than ordered, I don't do much arm movement. The new exercise allows me to rotate my whole arm and ball-in-socket joint = Monyelle In Love

*sigh*